New Eyes


I’ve been really trying to focus on moments lately. I’m trying to live in the present instead of getting nostalgic about the past or worrying about the future. It’s really hard to live in the present for a lot of people because we live in a world of deadlines and rushing to beat the clock. But in the days where I have been intentional about stopping to take in the moments and live in the present I am overwhelmed with gratefulness and joy. I have realized that God is constantly trying to reveal Himself to us throughout the day. He is constantly trying to get all of our attention and most of us are too busy living our lives the way we want to live it that we are blind to God’s face. I know I’m guilty of getting upset when my life isn’t going well and I try to figure everything out on my own. I focus on my own desires and my own wants and I think that I know what’s best for me and turn to things that make me temporarily happy. I get so sad and angry and envious of other people’s lives that I completely lose my ability to be thankful for the countless things God has given me. And finally I realize that I would rather the Creator of the universe have control over my life because He is the reason life even exists, I feel my heart get bigger and my ego get smaller and my eyes begin to see God’s blessings all over the place.

One of my absolute favorite authors Ann Voskamp emphasizes the meaningfulness of noticing blessings from God in her book called One Thousand Gifts (I highly recommend reading it).

“How my eyes see, perspective, is my key to enter into His gates. I can only do so with thanksgiving. If my inner eye has God seeping up through all things, then can’t I give thanks for anything? And if I can give thanks for the good things, the hard things, the absolute everything, I can enter the gates to glory. Living in His presence is fullness of joy- and seeing shows the way in.” –Ann Voskamp

When we look at our lives with our human eyes-it’s easy to see the ugly things, the scary things that keep us from falling asleep at night. But when we truly and completely fall in love with God and actually get to know Him-we have the chance to see through new eyes-a different lens that helps us to find the light in the dark-the hope in the middle of chaos. I am guilty of waiting on signs from God instead of searching for the signs. God is omnipresent-everywhere all the time. It is our job to intentionally seek Him. If only we would search for Him as if we were searching for something we had lost. My little sister loses things all the time and when she does she doesn’t tell my mom about it because she knows she will get in trouble so she casually and silently begins her search of the missing item. Her room is messy pretty much all the time so that’s how things go missing; under a pile of laundry or a pile of homework (sometimes even under the pile of her candy that she stashes in her room). She searches with urgency but not with haste because she knows it’s there somewhere she just has to look. What if we searched for God like that? Knowing that He’s around somewhere and if we look with our heart eyes instead of our human eyes we will be astounded by the messages and signs God gives us all the time. You have to want to see the Living Water before you drink it. He has always been here, He never left you and He never will.

So I encourage you (and myself) in knowing this. When we go through the day with searching eyes for the goodness and the beauty of the Lord and do not limit His presence to the obvious signs-it is possible to find Him in the ordinary. We need only to slow down and live in the present moment. God is the bird that shows up out of nowhere and sings a two second song then flies away-just to cheer you up. He puts that “Grandma” driver in front of you not to get you angry-but instead to teach you to slow down. God is the mysterious plant growing in your garden that makes your eyes light up in wonder of what it could be. God is the hand of a friend that reaches for yours to remind you you’re not alone. God is in the rain, the trees, the sunrise, the stars, the morning light pouring on your face through the window. He is in the eyes looking back at you in the mirror because you were created in His image and His spirit lives in you. He is everywhere-start looking.

 “The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness…” –Matthew 6:22-23

June


June swept me off my feet

Warm mornings filled with the choir of birds

It’s the most beautiful sound of gossip I’ve ever heard

Rain storms that never last long, but keep you cooped up inside then love pulls out the guitar to fill the house deep and wide

With every boom of thunder his voiced boomed too

A melody of sincerity and passion for the sky that lost the blue

Anthem for the lost, begging them to come back home

Waiting in silence as they aimlessly roam

June helped us to feel, made us all more aware

With the heat bearing down on our backs and our feet beginning to wear

We became one with the earth, the sun melting us together

Feeling free and brave like the wind sweeping up a feather

Hoping that the summer will last a little longer, so that we can taste the milk of the moon and become a little stronger

June swept us all off our feet, making our heartbeat like a song

The magic of summer was a collision of heat and freedom bringing everyone together and helping us know we all belong.