Doors in the Desert


You know the desert. That lull in your life when you feel like absolutely nothing is happening and you are lacking passion. You are hungry and thirsty for some sign of life-or a sign of hope-but even with the countless prayers you and many others have prayed, you are stuck. It feels like the twilight zone where you are going through the day-to-day schedule but you don’t really feel like you’re living. Where is the well with the living water? Where is the bread of life? I have searched for the food of hope in His book of promises but even when I read the words out loud that ‘He has a plan’ I still feel the heat of the desert sun wilting me. I know Jesus is both the water and the bread and I know He is here in the desert with me. But what I want to know is where is the door out of this desert.

I have never prayed so hard and constantly like I have for a new job. I have prayed for ten months for a new job. I have eagerly asked people I hardly know to pray for me to find a way out. I sent out countless applications that lead to nowhere. And along the way I heard of friend after friend who had landed a new job. And I’m like “What the heck, God? What about me? What about my prayer?” Thank God for Jesus and his forgiveness for my attitude. Thank you, Jesus for sitting with me here in the desert under the hot sun and kindly nodding and saying, “I understand” to all of my complaining. Thank you, Jesus for loving me and adoring me even when I’m mean to you.

So out of nowhere like a mirage, I spotted something that looked like a door. I heard through the grapevine that there was a job opening near my house.

“Is this the door?”

I finally found some glimmer of hope. But I was afraid of opening that door because I didn’t know what was on the other side. Someone told me that they heard a sermon that God puts us in the desert to make us stronger and bring us closer to Him. And I believe that. I believe that with all of my heart and my testimony was created in the desert. BUT I also believe that when opportunities come up in our lives that could possibly, maybe in some strange way be the answer to the prayer we’ve memorized-we should open that door. Our perception of what the answer to our prayers look like most of the time do not look like God’s answer. This door I saw was not what I had pictured but it was a door nonetheless. So, I decided to take a leap of faith and quit my job- one of the biggest leaps of faith I’ve ever taken in my life. I have only rested my hand on the doorknob but I already feel so much peace about what is on the other side.

So, I challenge you to open that funny looking door that could lead you out of the desert even if the knob is rusted and the hinges are squeaky. God answers our prayers in the strangest but most beautiful ways-and if He puts a door in front of you-don’t be afraid to open it.

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